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28 September 2012 @ 01:21 am
Okay, i had to get this out. It's been eating at me for months now, and I honestly don't know what to do. Let me start at the beginning. My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years now on the first of September. He is the only long relationship I've ever had. I'm not used to being with just one person, but I didn't mind. That was until Jason happened. Jason Good. I will never forget that name. The man that is still having me doubt my love for Bryan, my boyfriend. Jason was a regular customer of mine. He worked at a factory down the street, and I had given him a discount here, and there. He was a nice guy, and I was always good to my customers that were good to me. Well, not long after that did he start coming in the store every day. It became apparent after the first week that he was coming in to see me. Then finally when he made his move and asked for my number, I knew he really was attracted to me. I was honest, and told him I had a boyfriend. At first I didn't give him the number... but you don't understand. There was something about him, I just couldn't let him go just yet. Not to mention the fact that I had asked to talk to him alone back by the dumpster, where I stole my first kiss from him. After that, it was game over. I quickly got a cell phone that next weekend, and we began talking at night when my boyfriend was asleep. Jason.. God, he was such a good talker. The things he'd say to me. He constantly told me how sexy I was, and how smart and mature I was. Even if he did say all that just to get in my pants, I didn't care. He was older, much older in fact. 42 to my barely 20 at the time, but that only made him hotter. Our little affair was very short lived. We never even got to experiance the sex part because I chickened out so much. It got to the point where Jason didn't want to be that home wrecker in my life, and he left. Now, he's all I think about. I can't watch one single movie having to do with an older man being with a younger woman cause it makes me miss him so much. I want to talk to him so bad, I cry over him all the time. My boyfriend has no idea how I feel, but how do you tell someone who's in love with you that you don't love them back? I'm so depressed, I lost my job, I've gained so much weight that I'm sick of looking at myself in the mirror. The only thing that takes the pain away is either pills, weed, or alcohol. And even then, its still there. I wish I had a restart button, cause this isn't the life I want anymore. All because of one man that almost showed me everything I ever wanted, only to take it all away and move to another state. I hate this. 
07 July 2012 @ 12:47 am
..You finally find your muse 30 minutes before you have to go to work. Seriously muse fairies, wtf. Haha, oh well, it has got me excited to write this new fanfic that popped into my head. Well, it's not nessarely a fanfic..more like a really long one shot that has nothing to do with any fandom at all. I guess you could say its an original one shot? I don't know...but I'm excited to be excited about something. I've already started on the brainstorming, and character names. I got the faces for it, but that always comes right off the bat. I feel all anxious to write, which is a feeling I have missed. I have to slightly thank the movie Magic Mike for this, ngl. After I saw that movie I had sooo many ideas rolling around my head, til I finally decided on one today. Today was also my last day at Subway. I'm starting training at Denny's next Wednesday. Kinda nervous, but the tips will definitely be worth it. Anyways, I figured I'd give my readers (the few that are still around) a heads up that I will be posting this epic story very soon. I'm gonna use the couple days I have free before training to really buckle down on this. There might even be more to this one shot depending on the response I get back, and if my muse will stick with me. There will be smut, haha, well actually it's more like border line smut. I'm not quite sure where I'm going with this yet. I might just tease the fuck out of all of you and stop when the good stuff arrives haha. Jk, it's too fun writing out smut, so there will be something in there. Anyways, I'm gonna head to bed and start on the epicness tomorrow.....

Which I still have no title for lol. Fml.
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04 June 2012 @ 02:48 am
One, I forgot I had that icon, and I'm so happy that I did because it so compliments how I really feel. For two, I have to rant about the stupid people I have to deal with at work. I, sadly, work at Subway. Yeah, I know. Anyways, today I had a woman come. She's a somewhat regular customer, doesn't come in all the time, but enough to were I remember her. She came into the store today with her grand daughter. The thing you have to know about this woman is that she always complains about something. Everytime she's came threw the drive-thru, she's complained about something. Either the price is wrong, or her sandwich, it's always something. Well, first when she came in today, her grand daughter came up to the counter and asked for some napkins. So, my co-worker Frankie gave her a couple napkins. About five seconds later, the little girl comes back and asks for more. And in the back of my head, I'm like "Wtf, you guys haven't even ordered anything yet?", then the woman walks up and goes "Um, can we have a couple more napkins, this table is disgusting." Like she couldn't have just asked me to wipe the table? So I tell her to not worry about it, I wipe the table down, and that's that.

Frankie starts on her sandwich. Well, what started as a turkey foot long turned into one half had shredded, the other half had american. One half is toasted, one half not. And I know you all are probably thinking "cry me a river", try working fast food. Seriously, people are fucking dumb. Anyways, I walk up to help Frankie, cause I knew the woman was gonna take forever. I go to put the half of the sandwich that she wanted toasted on the pan, and she goes "Um, are those crumbs under that?". The black crate that holds the food had a little burnt cheese on it. I started to explain it, but I knew that it would've taken an hour for her to get it, and she would've asked me to clean it off anyways. So to save the hassle, I took the pan to the back and started cleaning it off. Well, apparently me doing that was rude, and I had an attitude because I didn't explain to her. Frankie was even trying to tell the woman that I was just taking back there to clean, but then she got all pissed at Frankie. So she took our names down and had her little hissy fit. I mean I respect my elders, don't get me wrong, but I didn't even do anything and you're gonna try to get me into trouble? It's like I'm damned if I do, and I'm damned if I don't.

People just kill me, and I can't keep doing this job. Obviously, I'm not a people person. So, this job is not good for me. In other news, I have no idea how to start my fanfic, but I've really been thinking about it this past week. I just gotta think of how to start the story. But, I have the summary of it pretty much in my head. I would write it down, but it would make no sense. Trust me, you all will be the first to see it. Anywho, I'm gonna watch the rest of Rocky Horror Picture Show, and get ready for my day off tomorrow and Tuesday. Thank God! lol.
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25 May 2012 @ 07:42 pm
Alright, so I got bored one night and thought "I haven't been on lj in forever", so I stalked it, lol. I realised that I wanted a gay relationship to happen so bad that I constantly posted about it, lol. Which, honestly, I can't blame myself even now. I don't really watch House anymore, but I hear its on its last season, so I really should catch up. Gotta re-spark my fan flame for Hilson. Heh, flamin and Hilson...too much. But, c'mon...they're hot. Which means sex between them would be like on FIYAAA!! lol, here I go again.. *rolls eyes* Anywho, it's been forever, right? I seem to only come around once a year. I'm like tax season... slightly excited yet annoyed when I first come in, yet relieved and sad when I leave. Yes, I just compared myself to tax season. It's the rum talking... I've decided to become an alcoholic, lol. Acutally, I've decided to become House. I will take lots of pills, drink lots of booze, sleep with lots of women & men (although idk how well that'd go over with my boyfriend haha), and hit people with my cane. It will be epic. Wow, I'm rambling, haha. I honestly don't know what to say, I just figured I should stop by and let hughville and the others know I'm still alive. I know you've all missed my witty banters and freak-out rants.

I would really like to start writing again. I must say, the fanfic I was working on with Wilson's daughter and all that was in the process of being my greatest work ever. I would like to finish it, but it needs some fine tunning. Starting with the daughter's age, and how her and House's weird relationship started. I've had a few ideas bouncing around, maybe not for a House fanfic, but just a novel in general. I need to get my muse out one way, or another. I wanna do a fanfic based around the song "Nights in White Satin" by The Moody Blues. Heard the song for the first time when I saw Dark Shadows, and I fell in love with it instantly. It's a very passionate, somewhat seductive '60s classic, which would be great for a House fanfic. I just need to catch up with everything first. Anyways...uhhh yeah haha. That is the end of my little rant =]
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I doubt anyone would really remember me since I haven't been on here in forever. And that would have to do with the fact that I'm now living with my boyfriend and we've been together for 8 months now. We might even be getting married, idk yet. It's exciting, but scary as hell, I'm not gonna lie. But I do love him, and I know that I am in love with him wholeheartedly so I hope this all will work out for the best. I haven't watched House in forever, but now that he's back on Vicodin and not with Cuddy (sorry guys I tried and I just couldn't get myself to like them) I probably will find the time to actually watch the show now. The show I was obsessed with was Shameless, which aires on Showtime, and it fucking rules.

Even though I didn't like how the last episode ended, I'm still excited for the next season. If you've never seen it, you gotta watch it. It's a crazy ass show that has an amazing cast, William H. Macy I mean come on, he's cool as fuck and funny as hell in this show. I think everyone should watch it, but that's just me. Anyways, well anyone who wants to catch up, maybe fill me in on the House episodes that I've missed? I just heard today about House going back to Vic's and everything and I am happy, as bad as that sounds. lol, sorry, but I love House drugged up. It's when he's at his best, in my opinion.

I am also in the mood for writing, I just don't know what yet. Maybe if someone would wanna brainstorm with me, or something? Idk, lol, I just have some down time so I've been bored.
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30 August 2010 @ 09:17 pm
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Talkin bout Hugh, The Emmy's, and my LJ friends. I was gonna say that jlk_lumberjack makes videos as well, and I was also gonna talk about cuddyclothes's fanfic and how much I want Johanna in my pants...but it cut me off.

28 August 2010 @ 09:28 pm
So I took that seduction quiz on Laura's page, and I posted it on her journal, but it said I was evil, lol. Said I was dislussional and Satanist. I didn't realize I was such a cruel person but, lol, oookay!

On to other things, I found a way to update my journal everyday. Thanks to the lovely erychan86 , I'm gonna start on a pairing meme.Day One...Collapse )
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23 August 2010 @ 07:11 pm

So this is about the best House video I've ever seen in my life. It's created by jlk_lumberjack who is also responsible for the sexy icons I have. She made this for a friend of hers for her birthday. I watched it not really thinking it was going to be so good, but as soon as I saw Cameron saying "He had an orgasm." then House all "DAAAAAAAYYYYOOOO *SMACK*" I kind of lost it after that lol.

Wilson is my fav in this I forgot how funny he looks sometimes. Then Foreman's infamous 'I'm not amused by your shit' look was full of win. I think I'm gonna start stalking her lj now, lol. Anyways, watch and enjoy the crackness.
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23 August 2010 @ 02:52 am

This video for real made me cry. Possibly the best House/Wilson vid ever because it's so true. Plus, Placebo is the best ever.
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19 August 2010 @ 02:51 am


I am thisssss close to writing a House fanfic based around this movie. It is so demented and psycho. I could just see it happening. Idk, I always picture a darker side to House for some reason. To him, and the other characters. Basically what Pathology is about is they go and kill different people in mysterious ways, and the others who are involved with "the game" have to figure out how that person died. Idk about you, but I totally see this happening with House as the ring leader, and Wilson, Chase, Thirteen, Taub, and Foreman following suit. I wanna make the story based around either a grad student going into the diagnostician field, or the mortician field. Idk, I'm rambling haha. Anyways watch the trailer, watch the movie. Tell me what you think
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